January 2011
55 posts
my bed
For as long as I can remember my bed has been my favourite place. It feels safe. I feel safe when I am under the covers. The world is scary a lot of the time. I want everyone to like me. I want to look good. I want to be exceptional. When I am in my bed I feel good just laying there. My life is not ver exciting. There is too much to want and not be able to have. So I hide, and my life is pretty...
“After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and...”
– Veronica A. Shoffstall (via quote-book)
i'm sorry
I’m sorry I constantly want to talk to you. I’m sorry when you take to long to reply, I get sad. I’m sorry if I say things that might piss you off. I’m sorry if I come off as annoying. I’m sorry if you don’t want to talk to me as much as I want to talk to you. I’m sorry if I think about too much and too often. I’m sorry if I tell you about my...
over thinking
I over-think everything.
From how long it takes you to text back, to what the song
lyrics in your status mean to you.
It worries me how much I like you, no love you.
It worries me that you don’t like me as much as I like you.
I’m losing my appetite and losing sleep.
I stay up all night thinking of perfect scenarios.
You make me happier that I ever thought I would be.
And also more scared than I...
mean it...
Don’t tell a girl you love her. She’ll actually be dumb enough to believe you. Things would be rushing in her mind, she’ll let down her wall, and slowly but surely, she’ll fall for you. She’ll believe your words. Don’t play with her heart. She’ll get attached and close with you and it would be difficult for her to let go. She’ll cry at night, she’ll do everything in her power to please you. She...
come find me
Why do I put so much of my heart into people when I know I’m always the one thats going to get hurt? Maybe its because I think people are different..Maybe because I think that somebody better will come along. Or maybe its because I think I’ve changed in a way. A way that will finally end this repeated heartbreak. But, no….the same things keep happening. I keep giving all my love...
over the edge
I wish I could put all my thoughts in a jar. I think too much. Thinking too much causes me to over think and analyze things I don’t want to deal with. It gets too much for me to handle and I panic. I shut myself down and go to war with myself. I’m tired. I’m sick of being tired. I don’t like who I am, but I have to live with it. I don’t know what I’m doing....
I want...
I’ve seen pictures of everywhere and everything. I see the planes fly overheard as I’m driving in my car, always wondering where they’re going. Always wondering who’s on it, why they’re on it. If they have a fear of flying. I won’t let myself have a fear of flying, or let myself get sick in the car, because I want to go everywhere. I want to spend my 20’s...
losing someone
When you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart, its the hardest thing you could ever go through. And no matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. You may think you’re getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest, you fall apart, for the...
show you off
I want to show you off to the world. We don’t have to make out everywhere we go just so that we could make everyone in our atmosphere crave it so much that they start to lick their lips. Or hold hands just so all the single people can walk by and call us cute. We don’t need matching outfits so we could camera whore and get all these comments on Facebook. As cute as that may sound, we don’t have...
“ I could write a love story, and convince every single reader that I know what...”
scariest thing
It’s the scariest thing ever to realize how much someone means to you. When it hits you, I mean really hits you, all these thoughts and questions rush through your head at once. A sad emotion even starts to creep on you slowly inch by inch as you start to wonder.
What if for some reason things dont work out? - How are you possibly going to love without them?
Someone that was once a...
“sometimes, you just can’t tell anybody how you really feel, not because...”
irrelevant
When you get to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you cant fall in love with beauty or looks. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with you eyes and your body, but not your heart....
I want...
I want to sleep beside you. No sex, no making love. I just want to lay down beside you and pull you into my arms and hold you until you fall asleep. And when you’re asleep, I just want to kiss you and whisper to you while you dream. I just want you to be the last thing I see before I close my own eyes at night, and I want to see your smile as soon as I wake up. I just want you here beside...
breaking the habit
When you are in a relationship, you have a one-track mind: your boyfriend. When you break up, you have a one-track mind: your ex-boyfriend. At what point do you forget the past and start thinking only about ME? You don’t have to think about your past; you don’t have to think about what is gone; you don’t have to think about the love you are missing out on. It is better to be free than be enslaved...
I'll wait
His hair, falls perfectly without him trying. His eyes, shine perfectly when he’s smiling. He took my perfume, sprayed it on himself and said, “so I can smell of you”. I melted. I never really wanted to think I was in love with him, I just thought I want what I cant have, but no, now I know without a shadow of a doubt. I’m in love with him, and if it’s possible to love someone more everyday, I...
